And the Winner is…

First of all, I want to thank you all for your wonderful, kind, touching, supportive comments!!!!!!! I am beyond grateful!!!!! You all made me feel I am not alone in this. You gave me so much good energy and I am thankful to all of you for that. I wish you all happiness and good health. Thank you.

For some reason (unknown to me) the video of me picking a winner doesn’t want to upload here, so I uploaded it on FB in a JJJunkies group. Those of you who don’t belong to that group will just have to trust me 🙂 about the name drawn, and it is Connie Monroe! Congratulations Connie! Please send me your address as soon as you can.

Thank you all for participating, and once again, thank you for your kindness. I really really appreciate it.

 

Tough Stuff

Hi all! How are you? I hope you are all ok and having a great time.

I have been trying to write a blog post for ages and I just didn’t know what to say (write). And to be honest, I still don’t. But I missed my blog and I missed being in contact with you all this way. So, here I am.

I am doing ok physically. I finished the treatments, it was rough but it’s finished. I am slowly getting strong again, I feel less and less tired, and even though there are many things still not quite all right, I hope they will be with the time passing. I am waiting for a first checkup at the end of the month to see if I’m Cancer free or not.

Mentally, I am also ok. Most of the time. When I don’t think. When I do think about my situation, I get scared. I get confused. And angry. I am not scared of death, I am scared of the possibility to not be with my husband. I want to live this life with him a bit longer. There are so many things we would love to do together. I am confused because I don’t know how to act. I don’t know how to deal with all this. I used to be a control freak, I used to try to plan everything in advance, and now I am facing a life without any possible planning or any certainty. Well, hello me! There ARE NO certainties in life! Let it go! Live in the moment!

It’s hard. But I am trying to change my way of living and thinking.

And the ‘angry’ part, well I am not sure who I’m angry with. It’s not God, I trust God. But my best friend told me that I sound angry and I trust her too. I guess I am angry with Cancer.

Sometimes I wonder if all this has some purpose. Maybe there is something I have to learn out of all this? I hope it’s not a punishment because I truly try and always have tried to be a good person. Yes I’ve made mistakes, but honestly I never did anything with bad intentions. So a lesson maybe? Or is it just a coincidence? Just a random thing?

I just don’t know!

To tell you the truth, I’m still not trying very hard to figure everything out. Most of the time I try not to think about it. My husband is my rock, he supports me, he understands why I have to escape to my studio day and night. That is what makes me sane. My art. I spend hours and hours working, thinking about what to make, how to make it, what materials to use, and that’s my sanctuary.

I don’t have children, and after the Radiation therapy I never will. The hormonal therapies for infertility I’ve received throughout the years have probably added if not caused this crap I’m dealing with right now, and I often wonder what my legacy will be? What will I leave behind after I’m gone? But one wise woman told me that it is not children or material things that matter the most when we go, it’s who we made happy. I do hope I have made (some) people happy and I hope I will make (some) people happy.

And if nothing else, there will be a ton of journals left when I’m gone. 🙂

So, I am giving away this journal:

It has different papers inside, mostly my textured handmade paper.

It is a gift from a heart.

Thank you. Thank you for reading this, thank you for being a part of my life. Even if we’ve never met or never will, it doesn’t matter. You are all part of my life and we are all connected. And I am thankful for that.

And the Winner Is…

Hello friends!

First I would like to thank you all for your lovely comments about my work, both here and on my FB profile. You guys are the best!

But I don’t want to keep you waiting, so to announce the winner of my giveaway:

all of the names went into this lovely little bowl that I made and I will explain that to you also (later) 🙂

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then my husband randomly chose one

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and it was

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Congratulations Julka! 🙂 Please email me your address and I will send the journal to you. Yay!

So, about the bowl. You know how I love to recycle. Actually, with the years passing, more and more of my work is inspired (at least partially) by recycling. Our planet is suffering. We are polluting it and destroying it and I feel horrible knowing that I am part of that. Well, some things are almost impossible to avoid, like using AC or buying products that contribute to pollution because there is no product in the grocery store that in some way does not contribute to pollution. But I try to do as much as I can to minimize that. And one of the ways is to recycle as much as possible.

We all get junk mail, receipts of all kinds, bills etc. And I have already shown you my handmade papers (which I love). 🙂 So as with making paper from newspapers and junk mail, you start with tearing them into small bits and soaking them in water for at least several hours but preferably over night.

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After that, you put them in the food processor and blend them.

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Then take a sieve or colander and if the holes are a bit big, add some thin fabric or a cloth or what ever you have on hand, and strain the mixture.

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You don’t want it to be too dry but also it shouldn’t be too wet. I know it sounds like crap when I say it like that, but there is no way for me to explain it better. The thing is, you will know if it’s dry enough because if it is too wet than you won’t be able to stick it to the bowl. And if it’s too dry, you will have hard time shaping it over your mold.

Here is mine nicely stuck to the bowl, which serves as a mold for my paper bowl.

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As you can probably see, I covered the bowl with plastic wrap before putting my paper over it.  Oh! I almost forgot to mention! You should add a little bit of glue to the paper paste after draining the water. For example, I would add about a tea spoon of glue to every cup of paper paste. But you could add more or less, I don’t have a recipe for that. In fact, it would probably be good to check out on Youtube how people do that, more professionally, but I was just playing and having fun.

Anyway, that’s how I did it, and I pressed it pretty well that paste.

After it is a bit dry, but not completely, which you will also be able to see because if it’s not dry enough it won’t be able to come off that bowl in one piece, you can take it off and put it somewhere to dry completely.

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Unfortunately, I don’t have photos of my bowls right now, but I will photograph them and show them to you in the next post. Hopefully this was enough explanation on how to make them, or at least to try and just have fun making a mess. 🙂 But you can make some really beautiful bowls this way, and after adding paint and varnish to them, they make lovely decorative pieces and also great gifts. Especially if you fill them with sweets! 🙂

Have a great day / night everyone!

Good News and a Giveaway

Hello lovely people!

I have some great news to share with you – my Etsy shop is finally working again! I am slowly adding more things to it, but there are some lovely journals there already. You can take a look and tell me what you think. 🙂

So to celebrate that, I would like to give this lovely little journal to one of you!

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It is a small journal, about 4,5 x 5,5 “, but it is quite fat and it has hard cover, very textural and lovely, and a lot of pages inside, as well as pockets and tuck spots. There is also a clay piece on the cover as a decoration and a focal point.

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Do you like it? If you do, just leave me a comment and I will be back very soon (probably in about 5 days) to draw a winner. Also, if you wish you could leave a comment on my FB profile and that way you’re also in a game(although that will still count as one entry). 🙂

Good luck!

A Giveaway!

I have been busy lately making all kinds of things, including jewelry. It relaxes me, but it also makes more room for new beads in my bead boxes, LOL! In my next post I will show you new earrings and bracelets made for moi, but now I want to share with you a little summer set that I made for this giveaway.

A stretchy bracelet made with shell beads

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And a pair of matching earrings (the left one looks more yellow than it actually is, don’t know why)

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And that is not all! I am also giving this journal I made some time ago. Your support means a lot to me, so I would like to send you my love with this journal.

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If you’d like to win, all you have to do is leave a comment and I will pick a winner on Wednesday. 🙂

Thank you for visiting my blog and for sharing this journey with me.

Blogaversary Giveaway!

I almost forgot that today is my Blogaversary! I can’t believe that the whole year passed so quickly! OMG! And what a great year it was! I am having so much fun here, sharing with you my creations and bits of my life. So it’s giving time, and I would love to give to one of you the purse/makeup bag I created a while ago.

This purse was made with machine stitched navy blue fabric, lace, and painted plastic bags. Unusual and unique. I hope you like it. And if you do, just leave a comment here on my blog, and I will randomly pick the winner on Tuesday, March 13th. 🙂
I also wanted to share with you my latest (and already SOLD) album. I forgot to post photos of it earlier, and I really love how it turned out, so here it is now!

I used thin corrugated cardboard for the covers, and very thin cardboard for the pages. Everything was first painted with several coats of acrylic paint, and then I added lots of lovely scrapbook papers, bling, puff paint, feathers, lace, and other things. I love it! And tomorrow it’s flying to US! 🙂

Thank you for stopping by! I still can’t believe it’s been a year since I started this journey. 🙂

Have a wonderful day!

Inchies again and a winner!

Yep! One inch boxes! It is for another swap at Milliande’s! The rules were to make one-inch or two-inch box, make it flat for an easy shipping, but with a way to assemble it once it reaches it’s destination. It was a bit of a challenge to come up with the solution for a closure, and to make something at least a bit different than what other girls were making just to add to the fun. There are already so many great ideas, I must admit I did have to think hard…But I found the way, and we all have something unique to add to the group so that’s what’s important.

I made them with paper, plastic bags, acrylic paint, buttons, threads and a pebble. I just had to use plastic bags, they give an awesome texture! Here, take a closer look:

Here are my two little creations:

I couldn’t stop at one, it would be so lonely! 🙂

We ( I mean Meda, hubby and me) also had some fun last night picking the winner as promised, and here are the photos to show you how it was executed. First I wrote everyone’s name on a piece of paper.

For the six month old blog, I guess this is a crowd! LOL Thank you so much girls for participating, it means so much to read your comments and to have you here! I really appreciate it!

Next step – Meda comes to the stage to pick a winner! 🙂

In the next photo, if you look very very carefully, you will see a tiny piece of paper coming out of his mouth. That’s why he has that crazy look on his face:

And the winner is….DEB!

Congratulations Deb! And once again, thank you all for participating, this was my first giveaway and it was so much fun, I’m gonna have to do that again! 🙂 Deb please email me your address and I’ll send the bag to you by the end of this week.

Have a great day everyone! 🙂